The Non-derivative Reality

Just got back from Times Square, roughly 6 p.m. on Saturday, extremely comfortable weather, 75 degrees, sunny, breezy. A guy showed up today in a blue Speedo, guitar, dress shoes (black), a dressy, Robinhood looking hat, and just singing up a storm. Had a nice size camera following him around as he took photos and did, basically the same thing I do, just across the street. He came over after about two hours and said hello. His name is Vince Diamond, from NYC, maybe I'll be seeing him daily, maybe it was promotional, pretty cool I guess. I certainly expect to see naked men with guitars all over the world as the revolution takes off. It's just such a freakin' great idea.
I'm supposed to recieve a call tonight from a guy named Andrew Wright who I met previously on the 'JV and Elvis Show.' Andrew was an entrepreneur who made himself their producer by persistence and now has a few on-line reality show gigs he works with, I believe it involves professional wrestlers, will update as I know more. Says he's gonna take his career to the next level by getting Naked Cowboy Reality show up and running as he as two networks who want to hear his pitch. He's gonna shoot me tomorrow, Sunday and Thursday next week at a Red Carpet event at the grand opening of 'Ripley's Believe It Or Not' in Times Square, 42nd Street, with Carmen Electra who I worked with on a show called 'Living Large' some years back. He will make a pilot over two days of shooting and sell it the following week? Got two other crews doing the same type of thing with totally unique concepts that I was asked not to disclose, one pitching in California on the 20th, the other in NYC as well, all three with nothing but verbal agreements that I would be the talent if they get a show. Writing is on the wall, Naked Cowboy Reality Show will be connected so soon you can easily visualize it. I've got staples who are gonna meet with other staples in two weeks, and brand new guys who will shoot today, sell tomorrow and ask for nothing but that I'm interested in having it handed to me free of attachment. Awesome, people like myself who live in the daytight present and will either demonstrate of starve. (Incidentally, the 'JV and Elvis Show, got canceled and the JV and Elvis fired around the time Don Imus was fired. Don Imus for making off-color jokes about Blacks, African Americans, however I'm allowed to refer to the group of my brothers who happen to have skin color different from my own, and JV and Elvis for off-color remarks about the Chinese. Now NYC has 'K-Rock' again, the old Howard Stern network.
I'm taking the day off from training today as I went on a date with Cindy last night and want to rebuild. We left the house around 7p.m. and ran to Secaucus High School track for a while, then to the outskirts of the Millcreek Shopping Mall, then past the new Olive Garden on the other side of town, around Niko Niko, G.N.C., the Holiday Inn, up and around County Avenue, then all around the 'Outlet Stores,' Panasonic and back. About 10 miles. What a woman. An hour and forty minute orgasmic, sweaty adventure of muscle conditioning excellence. Then we came home and read books for about three hours, awesome.
On the subjects of books, I'm in Franklin Merrell-Wolff's 'Transformations in Conciousness,' the Metaphysics and Epistomology. Unbelievable. This moring, after two days of breezing through the uncommon understanding of Naturalism, Materialism, Positivism, Vitalism, Empiric Voluntarism, Pramatism, Gnosticism, Idealism, Mysticism and then FMW's Introceptualism I was simply 'Nirvanic' or as they say, 'Blown Out.' All of my soft ware was undesirable in relation to the newfound sense of wonder created by so many new channels for thought to travel in. Of course I labored through this whole book twice in the past and learned through heavy concentration in order to be able to just rehearse it as I do today. Like Ralph Waldo Emerson, Frederich Neitzsche, Deepak Chopra, Dr. Wayne W. Dyer, Immanuel Kant, J.W. Von Goethe, Hegel, Plato, 'A Course in Miracles,' J. Krishnamuri, the Canonical Gospels, the 'Gospel of Thomas' and the rest of them, I built deeply imbedded dendrites in which I can now easily swim through multiple rivers of conciousness without getting stuck in them. Today's realization, all new yet surely some form of repeat, was that all things are derivative. All these channels of thought, every idea, all reasoning, anything thinkable is derivative. Only the moment that is right now, and all that is possible in it, is non-derivative. Not projecting or reflecting, just being, as is. I can perceive it is chilly when it is 60 degrees if it has been 90 degrees for days, yet perceive it is warm at 60 degrees if it's been in the 30's for days. The perception changes though the objective phenomenon is the same. I can find it to be 'good' that I'm giving a dollar to a homeless man one day, yet evil the next. Clearly the conception has changed yet the objective phenomenon has remained the same. And consider, do we perceive things and then form concepts, or are concepts already existent a priori as Kant say's and perceptual experience merely a means to discovering them? Then, is there in fact a mode of conciousness completely outside of experience, a form of Transcendental Conciousness that makes all subject-object conciousness, or egoic Conciousness merely a band, or fragment only seeming to exist in a lower vibratory realm of awareness not yet awakened and where is the base to exist if one is to really be able to live wholly and without 'sinning' or 'missing the mark,' 'missing the point' of life. 'Gaining the whole world yet losing the soul.' You get the point. I've been all over the map of possible interpretation and inward penetration and so whose calling who what, 'Spic, Jew-boy, Knappy headed, Honky, is so freakin' simple minded, and to think that we are to punnish and reward people in society based on external, empirical, material, surface level criteria is pathetic. I'm the choice maker, not the choices I make. I'm the awareness, not what I'm aware of. I'm the experimenter, not the choice of experiment. I'm the thinker, not the conclusions of my past thoughts. All this is derivative. I am the non-derivative. I am. I am that I am. 90 percent of the people in this world would claim I'm wrong, the same 90 percent that would need a dictionary and two college professors to define and explain most of the terminology I've discussed above.